2 Corinthians 12:10

Anger. Frustration. Bitterness.

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 20:44:57 -0400

All the emotions I’m feeling at this moment.

I never really liked my dad, neither did I ever respect him as a man. I know he does a lot for me, but he’s only done those things because he’s been trying to make up for 18 years of my life where all he did was call me ‘dumbass’, ‘stupid’, etc. How am I supposed to love others when I don’t even know love myself?

Whatever. Gonna go let off some steam.

damn this is pretty cute..

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 20:36:34 -0400

damn this is pretty cute..

dleex4t3ff: word. come on

Tue, 17 Jul 2012 20:31:51 -0400

dleex4t3ff:

word.

come on

Jesus Culture Conference in New York They were amazing live....

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 10:55:40 -0400

Jesus Culture Conference in New York

They were amazing live. Their live singing voices sound like the music we listen to every day. Kim Walker doing her thing as Kim Walker was crazy lol. She was so powerful and she seemed to be so in tune with the Holy Spirit that every time she said/sang something, I couldn’t help but be in awe of what struck me.

The thing that was even more amazing was that people of all race came together to worship one God. White people, black people, asian people and EVEN BROWN PEOPLE came to this conference. Maybe because I was only exposed to Korean Christians, this amazed me. I really wanted to sit next to a big black sassy woman because I really wanted to see how she would worship and stuff but it didn’t happen hahah.. but I did hear a black woman a little bit behind me reacting to Bill Johnson’s sermon and I was happy because I got to hear a black person react to the Holy Spirit. MUCH RESPECT!

At the end of his sermon, Bill Johnson made alter calls and it was for healing. Now at this point I was like ‘eh whatever’ but he was like, ‘Anyone with previous head trauma, such as concussions….maybe from playing football?’ and I felt Lisa’s eyes piercing through my heart as if she was like ‘YEAH I KNOW SOMEONE!’ Next he said, ‘Anyone with cartilage problems, such as the knees?’ Once again, Lisa’s eyes.. lol then he asked, ‘Anyone that has broken their RIGHT ANKLE before and it hasn’t healed correctly and is giving them problems?’ Now at this point, I was like this guy is crazy.. everything he said, is….. ME! He told people to look around and look for the people with the physical problems and some people found me and prayed for me and although I didn’t feel anything funky going on in my ankle or knee, I did feel better. It was crazy because during worship I could barely stand because my ankle was KILLING me, but there I was jumping on it and bending it as if nothing was wrong.

I realized something yesterday. I am HUNGRY for God’s presence and I am STARVING for his glory. Seeing the wave of people lifting their hands, not caring about the people next to them was so uplifting for me. Even though I went to the conference expecting nothing, I left with an imprint on my heart. I definitely felt God tugging at me. Not a physical tug, but just watching the people around me worshiping, I felt as if God was asking me, ‘How badly do you want this, because I want you so much more.’ I couldn’t help but cry (even though I fought the tears as hard as I could lol). That was what I was looking for the last few months. I wanted that encounter. Of course after every good thing, something ALWAYS manages to piss me off and it’s usually crazy/reckless drivers. Anyway, I was truly amazed yesterday and now that DR missions is right around the corner, I feel ready and energized. Thank you Jesus.

"I believe I will walk again. I do. When that happens, I already know what I’m going to do...."

Fri, 04 May 2012 17:53:43 -0400

“I believe I will walk again. I do. When that happens, I already know what I’m going to do. I’ll go to Giants Stadium and find the exact spot in the field where I went down. I’ll lie there for a second. And then I’ll get up on my own power and walk away.”

- Eric LeGrand

nothing but the blood

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:21:07 -0400

Such a good song. My words can’t do it justice.

Your blood speaks a better word
Than all the empty claims I’ve heard upon this earth
Speaks righteousness for me
And stands in my defense
Jesus it’s Your blood

What can wash away our sins?
What can make us whole again?
Nothing but the blood
Nothing but the blood of Jesus
What can wash us pure as snow?
Welcomed as the friends of God
Nothing but Your blood
Nothing but Your blood King Jesus

Your cross testifies in grace
Tells of the Father’s heart to make a way for us
Now boldly we approach
Not by earthly confidence
It’s only Your blood

We thank You for the blood
We thank You for the blood

We praise You for the blood
We praise You for the blood

Nothing but Your blood
Nothing but Your blood King Jesus

INSANITY.

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 12:44:33 -0400

Ever since I started doing Insanity, I feel like a new person. I feel sore, I’m eating like a BEAST (not much of a difference there), slept like a baby last night, and I woke up early today. It’s only been 2 days since I’ve started but I feel like my lifestyle has changed. Today was much harder but nothing is promised to be easy. I remember someone telling me that your physical body reflects your spirituality. Of course I didn’t listen because I’m a lazy bum, but now that I’m actually trying to work out and stuff, I feel better. It’s weird but I feel a lot happier and spiritually I feel a lot better.

Whenever I was struggling spiritually I never really thought that I could do anything about it, but in reality it’s ALL me. Now that I’m trying to fix up my temple for the Holy Spirit to rest, I feel like we’re getting somewhere.

“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.”

2 Corinthians 3:17-18

Racism.

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 01:43:31 -0400

Racism is a lot closer to me than I thought. Just got called a “fucking chink” from a delivery guy for no reason at all. I stood there and I’m not gonna lie, I cursed back at him, but what the hell man. Really, that’s just not cool. I could go on and on about how I’m supposed to be a Christian and “turn the other cheek”, or “love your enemy” but that was bullshit. This sandwich doesn’t even taste good anymore because I’m so bitter.

Jeremy Lin recently was called a chink by an ESPN writer. The guy got fired and all that but Jeremy wasn’t mad. He actually ate lunch with him about a week or two ago. I read the article about how they didn’t even talk about the incident, but they actually talked about the gospel and all that. The guy apologized and Jeremy forgave him. Honestly, I don’t think I can apologize to the guy if he came up to me and said sorry right now. Oh and Jeremy ASKED him out to lunch. Crazy..

Jesus, if you can hear me, how the HELL did you just take in all the curses, all the torture, all the pain? I get called one name and I almost hulked out on the dude. I haven’t cursed or been this angry in such a long time. I guess this is just another example of how human I am no matter how perfect I may think I am. How am I supposed to be a servant for your kingdom and lead your sheep when I’m such a sinner? I say in my prayers all the time, “Help me to be more like you… I want to take up my cross daily… I want to be more Christ-like…” but I can’t.. It’s funny how around this time you were getting beat and getting cursed at by the same people that accepted you into Jerusalem saying “Hosanna, Hosanna!” How can you die for such a sinner like me..?

"Don’t ask God to make life easier, but ask Him to make you stronger."

Tue, 27 Mar 2012 17:55:18 -0400

““Don’t ask God to make life easier, but ask Him to make you stronger.””

LOLLL “OH MY BAD…” nbaoffseason: Michael...

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 18:15:00 -0400

LOLLL “OH MY BAD…”

nbaoffseason:

Michael Beasley would have been an epic Dave Chappelle character. “Oooooo… AHHH! my bad, dawg!”

@Suga_Shane

I don't know how I'm feeling.

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 11:20:40 -0400

These days I don’t care. I don’t care about me, I don’t care about school, I don’t care about my parents and I don’t even care about God. I don’t know why this is happening but I want to run away as far as possible and never come back.

Maybe God is trying to teach me something here.. who knows?